Cam Fox @dentalflossbay@qoto.org

@chamberlainnl Also my second appointment involved looking up the state of RI website for reporting employee wage theft, after the (same) technician complained that his paycheck was a week late and he was planning to not show up on Monday if this wasn't rectified.

@chamberlainnl The technician had the audacity to be surprised when I promptly gave year-month-day on my last menstrual period (several years in the past) despite some head-scratching over dates of diagnosis for various small things.

@chamberlainnl Given that there's a protocol for revealing your status (and kicking you our of the study) if it affects your medical care, I would imagine you could reasonably yank on that process once the study is concluded, if nothing else.

@chamberlainnl Yeah, I get that they don't want to experiment on pregnant people, but given that they're doing a urine test each time and the vaccine platform itself is safe for pregnancy, I'm not sure why they care so much about listing the reasons I could not possibly be pregnant.

@chamberlainnl Oh, I asked that one and got a different answer!

I saw paperwork that said I'd be unblinded at the end of the study, but not guaranteed a dose if the study is successful. I asked the PI and was told "huh, that's unusual, I would think we'd give you a dose at the end of the study if you end up in the control, and I'll see what I can do about it."

@chamberlainnl I got the idea that they don't interact with actual ticks much: "I usually put the ticks in a jar full of alcohol. Should I keep count? Do you want them?" got some bogglement. (If I find a tick actually latched on, I am to put it in a baggie in my freezer just in case.)

@chamberlainnl The tech working with me was pretty thwarted by not having a clear mapping from the items on my meds list, to diagnosis dates. The words "when did you start being transgender?" were uttered, then backpedaled from. I spelled "vaginal atrophy" aloud as requested, without snickering, and I think that goes on the bingo card for medical interactions.

@chamberlainnl Yep, I'm 2 shots into that one (and it's my first clinical trial) and ... maybe it's just well tolerated.
I did wish that they could've taken down more of my information when I was at a computer, rather than playing "let's make you spell every medical diagnosis you've ever had while wearing a mask, and take dictation" though.

Now thinking on 2023, I've got a few goals ready that cover stuff I got closer to, but missed this year:
- Pemigewasset wilderness as solo backpack (two night?)
- Kancamagus highway loop as two night bikepack
- Mt Dix slides trail in the Adirondack High Peaks
- Black Cat & Traveler Mtns N. of Katahdin in Baxter park
- Wapack trail as one-way end-to-end (bicycle to close the loop?)

It's not my plan to stress over it much if it doesn't line up, but I think writing it down at all shows me becoming that much more goal driven as a hiker.

So summer 2022 was the first year I'd set explicit hiking/outdoors goals, and it served me well. They were:
- push past the "4000' in one day" (hiking elevation gain)
- self-supported backpacking overnight
- Katahdin knife edge
- bicycle packing overnight POC maybe with teenager

I missed on the last but picked up a bonus trip with each kid in September, and I think I hit the right balance of specific and flexible.

@divVerent @freemo @lucifargundam But unlike that kid's movie in which the little girl has wings and the little boy doesn't, these moths have it the other way around.

@freemo What's the desired/pragmatic usage for this example? I assume some cloaking is wanted in case of phobias, etc.

So is the CW the same as marking the picture as sensitive? These Winter Moth (Operophtera brumata) are totally having sex.

I suspect that backing kids up on consent based boundaries, starting young is helpful, but while I had caring and attentive parents, I didn't get that - eg I was told to hug and kiss relatives as a child.

As an adult I'm inclined to state boundaries and be briskly decisive in mundane situations in a way that my mother finds quite rude. I think I learned that experimentally, but I wasn't taught it.

My own children have been told that obedience to teachers has limits, and that if a situation is dangerous, they should do what they think is best without worrying about authority/punishment - but I think permission to disobey is only a piece of the picture.

I have since experienced that level of dissociation during a bicycle accident - I was in the air and time slowed down, and another part of me said "we got this" and took control and arranged the landing.

I do not in ordinary circumstances have obvious signs of DID or interpret my experience as a multiple - if I were supernaturally inclined, I might interpret it as a guardian angel. I currently interpret it simply as being able to act on intuition.

@marathon0 I would say that it was more a matter of intuition. We went for a walk off campus(!) and he asked if I could keep a secret. I glibly replied, that no, I couldn't, and then conversation moved on.

Inside my head it felt like someone not-me had taken the controls and given that answer, and I felt frustrated because I was then curious as to what the secret would have been.

Six years after that he was arrested, and it was maybe another ten years before I spotted what that was.

@marathon0 Yup, charisma is a prerequisite to being a serial abuser. I deflected a favorite teacher who probed my boundaries when I was 10 and was later prosecuted for molesting other kids.