I'm refraining from "analysis" or "statements". I'm not an organization - I'm a person and while I strongly believe that resistance and defeat of fascism can only come from collective organizing, there is something very lonely and individual that many of us go through when conditions radically change like they did 36 hours ago.

In anticipation of yesterday I've been trying to plan out how this changes my personal posture, but frankly the immediate paralysis is still holding me.

And even with an unflinching anti fascist commitment, so much goes into determining what your posture can be, and what you'll actually make it.

Since June I've been radically considering leaving the United States after 14 years. This is a personal decision that transcends the "If Trump wins I'll just move" mantra, but it's something that's difficult to discuss seriously without falling into an imprecise discussion about privilege and responsibility for what is to me still a foreign state.

Despite maintaining legal status and recently obtaining US citizenship, my immigration experience in this country has always tied me much closer to the less privileged victims of this state's racist border and immigration system, than the "native" born nationals of this country.

And this is a perplexing contradiction, because despite solidarity and identification with all immigrants, attaining citizenship and my white skin do materially remove me from that collective group I identify with

Finally, potentially leaving the United States on my own free will is the ultimate realization of those privileges. So I write all of this aware of the inherent contradictions of my situation.

But I am a person, not an organization. And my post election personal posture will have to be made with other considerations that have to do with what's best for me and my family, in addition to those political contradictions.