Right. So, I was diagnosed with clinical Depression over 9 years ago, in June 2010.
For me it came with a sense of relief

I was 20 then. All my life I had been a freak, a misfit, fooder for bullies. I had 0 self esteem or self confidence

I always thought that I was basically flawed as a person and I would always a have a life like this

So yes, I've been on medication now for 9+ years

I joined my first job as a techie 2011. Moved to a new city, and fell into trap of binging on food. Emotional eating

I put on 30 kgs in 3 years, had many breakdowns

2014, I moved abroad. Got into one of the world's top business schools

Everything was going great but I started suffering from crippling anxiety from my 2nd sem

Grades fell. Couldn't network for the life of me. Gained the reputation of someone who can't be relied upon.

I'm 2nd year I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, GAD. Apparently, I'd had this since I was a kid. I had no idea coz anxiety was a part of my life, my reality

I graduated in 2016 June, and had a complete breakdown. Couldn't job hunt, would sleep for the half the day

Ultimately I had to move back home.

It was kind of relief. I started job hunt here. I was in a state where I had nothing to lose. It's like they say, "When you've got rock-bottom, the only way is up"

I landed a role in mental health startup. That was amazing. I found myself working so much. I didn't even know I was capable of this

It's been over 2.5 years now, but I've hit some bad lows.

I sat down with a clinical psychologist a couple of days back as I have experienced, for the 1st time in my life, suicidal thoughts.

Turns out I may be an undiagnosed case of Bipolar II

Have an appointment with my Psychiatrist on Thursday. Hopefully the diagnosis will be confirmed and I'll be put on medication which will finally make me feel better

So yeah, that's my story till now

I go for therapy regularly, take my medication on time.