Update 2: life.
How in the world do my parents cope with all the shit they have tyo cope with? The question I asked some time ago. The answer quickly came to me: they don't. Smoking, wine, sleeping in and burying themselves in work and household chores to not think about the situation.
Now the shit piled up on my plate as well, with stress from work and family life. And I seem to somehow have far more resources than I anticipated. As long as there is some time to rest and process the events of the week (Saturday is off-limits for this reason), everything is more or less okay.
Reading about psychology and philosophy helps a lot, especially stoicism. For some reason I find it quite calming to read.
I knew this in theory, but hoped sincerely that I won't have to exert myself to such degree. The time has come, I didn't like it but now I know more about myself.
And in a few days, when there won't be a lesson or a zoom call in the evening, I'll get myself a chill bottle of cider :D
@academicalnerd 👍 And don't forget to be nice to yourself along the way.
@academicalnerd Stoicism is quite calming in practice too ;p
@academicalnerd good to see you back. Persevere!
P.S.
And yes, people have more resources than they think. But it only shows when there's no other way.