This will be a long post so bear with me.

So there’s a secret I have been carrying around all my life. It’s something that I realized when I was young and as the years went on it became clearer and clearer. But because I was raised in a deeply religious and bigoted family I kept that secret buried deep inside. Keeping it buried has done a number on my mental health over the years. Depression is something that has remained a constant in my life. But I soldiered on and continued living a lie.

I’m sure by now you’re either figured it out or are wondering what this secret is. So let me just go ahead and say it…I’m #trans. I’ve battled gender dysphoria all my life. I cosplayed as a man and engaged in hobbies and pursuits that were super masculine to hide the fact that inside was this woman screaming to get out. I got married, became a father, and continued pretending. But the dysphoria continued and depression took its toll on both my health and marriage.

Fast forward to last week. While chatting with my Big Sister Wren this secret could not stay buried any longer and my egg cracked. I told her I was trans. All at once a huge weight was lifted off my chest. I cried. She cried. And my world changed.

So here I am…Applefangirl. Hopefully those that follow me will continue to do so and support me over the next few years as I begin this transition journey. So this is my last post on this account (and it will be my pinned post on my new account). Love you all! 🩷