If what i hear is true, i should not exist.
Humanity hurting itself is just too obvious, why would anyone want this?

If that is true, why do i exist? Is there a malicious force bringing into existence what it enjoys hurting, like a torment nexus? Or is life a botched concept? Like evolution going "lol see this thing can replicate, and it will shit itself" and life saying "haha sure make it shit itself"?