@amiloradovsky@functional.cafe hmmm, not sure how is any of what I said politics... or bashing for that matter... or philosophical... not sure what humanities are, but I guess it was about humans...

Regarding specifics, I locked up on the first ever lecture on reals and couldn't go past that point until numerical methods came along to shed some light on the realities of actual applied mathematics, but at that point it was too late for me to catch up, so I don't think I can argue anything other than "I don't like, and I don't have an alternative that I like either". Nothing constructive on that front, other than maybe referring to this one youtube channel I found https://www.youtube.com/user/njwildberger
which seems promising, but nothing I can really vouch for as I haven't gone through it myself yet.