You Must Kill Yourself To Become Who You Will Be

It has always seemed to me that I cannot change my habits without falling back into my old ways. Especially with the year coming to an end, I'm thinking about going to a gym again.

Over time, I've found the only way I can change what I do is to change who I am. And I am a person who...
- comes home from work and changes into comfy clothes
- thinks working out is inferior to doing specific work
- feels like he doesn't have spare time
- gets a little ragey while working out

None of these aspects of who I am are compatible with a person who goes to the gym regularly. The only way I could develop such a habit is by being a different person. To be a different person, who I am now must cease to be. I must kill myself to become who I will be.

If I were going to be a gym going person, I'd need to think about myself differently (no longer consider myself lazy), I'd need to think about things differently (will this meal make me feel bad during my workout), learn new ways of speaking (gym jargon), and have new priorities.

All of this amounts to a whole different person, connected to who I am today only by shared history. Which is why I say you need to kill yourself to become who you will be.