been feeling particularly bad today. like…the dread and hopelessness and heavy upsetness, at a level that i don't think i've had since…well, since the half of last year when everything was really bad.

at least i have nesting friend. i was alone last year, and it's a huge difference. and they are so so good. <3

they can't magically make the brain bad go away though.

at least I can still answer #rust questions

take that, all zero entities who have suggested I'm useless

sad girl is still good girl

oh, i'm gonna cry more

gods my sleep is a mess