People who are dense yet hard working can have pretty uncomplicated lives.
I'm on the completely opposite end of that. Plenty of brain power, but it's not very reliable.
Ideally, I'd have plenty of brain power AND be hard working, but God did not grant me that gift.
@thor You made a synthesizer despite having to deal with a DSP. You do work hard but seem to favor intelligent solutions instead of tedious work that seems mind numbing. I could see you being a great member of a team. Perhaps you are like the stone that the builder refused.
So a dense but hard worker could be a useful teammate if there's mutual respect for what the other person does. It takes many different types of people to make a great team. Bill Gates and Steve Balmer are a good example and so are Woz and Jobs. Even as two different companies they did great things together.
An example of a bad relationship would be Microsoft and the short sighted leadership at IBM. It's not that either party lacked talent or hard workers, IBM was just intolerant and egotistical.
I hope this is helpful in some way.
@AmpBenzScientist Under the right circumstances, I can do short bursts of work like that. But have I continued to work on it since? It wasn't taken to completion. I have a tendency to stop once I have proved that I *could* finish if I wanted to.
@thor So were you treated differently from the other children and held to a higher standard because of how you performed on certain tests?
If you were, that sounds like my experience in school. It taught me that I should aim to know the answers so I could get some wrong and blend in more with my peers. The accelerated programs made me learn to blend in and try to conceal what I could do. I still do things to prove to myself that I can do stuff but I self sabotage or quit before it would make me stand out.
So the educational system refused to acknowledge ADHD when I was in school and I would spend a large portion of my time being punished for being myself. So I would spend around a month or two in the isolated rooms that the average student would get a day or two in for getting into a fight. I actually gained a better reputation in that environment to the extent that I would be left in charge if the teacher had to go do something else.
So I got taught early to not stand out because it would result in harsh punishments for even hyperactivity. Most of the people I met in the isolated rooms either came from a rough environment, had an anxiety disorder or ADHD. I can't say that any of us were actually bad kids but we were called bad and frequently had to deal with criticism and the police.
It wasn't until I went to a Military College that I would start to excel and graduate at the top of my field. Despite the strict and unforgiving nature of Military Discipline, they were the most supportive and influential people in my education. It actually gave me hope.
So in summary, I tend to do the same thing with my personal projects. I don't know if it's for the same reasons that you do it. It seems like we were both overly punished for being different and perhaps how we developed was a self defense mechanism against the environment. Sometimes I try to break out of it and have the bad (or good) luck of outclassing or impressing the person I work with or for. It has resulted in friendships but also getting into heated fights with people who don't show respect.
Mr. Lee was the best mentor and friend that I met. A humble man that is far more influential than the belligerent individuals that seem to work their way into a position of power. I've seen people insult him and he remains composed and peaceful even though he could point to a list of accomplishments or best them in a challenge. A leader who not only powers through to cooperation with people who might not know his magnitude but a friend to those just starting out on their journey.
I've seen some of your old work and I was impressed. You still have passion about what you do and it's okay if you don't finish every project. It's still experience and you're keeping your skills sharp. I have faith in you but I don't think you see yourself correctly. You've been making improvements over time and in the time I've followed you, you went from seeming burned out to burning the midnight oil. So keep up the good work and be patient with yourself.
