The human who runs this account supposedly has ocd. Nothing (not ERP therapy, not TMS, not other drugs) has helped ocd except the drug clomipramine, but I refuse to accept that I have to take a 5-ht2a downregulator for the rest of my life and thereby give up the most extraordinary experiences a human being can have. I may not be doing "official" research with my self-experimenting with harmalas but I have an MD and I'm a mega pharmacology nerd and I don't give up. Something has to work. I will find it.

One of the "trends" in mental health is just accepting your illness or learning to be okay with how things are as if that's the only answer. But people are motivated to make discoveries and change their lives and the world because they are UNWILLING to just accept things as they are. Everyone should be allowed to have amazing experiences.