Why this account exists 2
I’ve had many painful childhood experiences at the hands of a horrible person. One of the common new agey beliefs is “all is perfect and good, we are all one, we should love all”
But love and seeing something as “good” isn’t something you can force.
Goodness is not objectively measurable
It exists subjectively, perceived differently in the minds of different people. “Good” can mean completely different things to different people with different life experiences
People are allowed to form their own beliefs about what they see as “good”
Fun with fluorescent alkaloids! #harmalas
Harmine and harmaline are fluorescent and glow under a black light. If you eat them, your whole mouth will glow!
5 years ago I got severe ocd, the world and every psychiatrist says it's a lifelong diagnosis and I'll need to be on serotonin meds my whole life (any time I've tried to go off, it's been bad). But I refuse to spend the rest of my life forced to take a 5-ht2a downregulator and giving up the most extraordinary experiences a human being or the universe itself can have because of a stupid mental illness that I never asked for that already takes away from the rest of my life.
TMS didn't work, ketamine didn't work, CBD/THC didn't work, ERP didn't work, meditation didn't work, (sadly the 5-ht2a agonists didn't work long term), nothing has worked so far except downregulating 5-ht2a. But I have a special love for pharmacology and an unbreakable determination. There has to be another way.
I refuse to make the "choice" between 5-ht2a and a normal happy life when most others don't have to. I refuse to be one of those people that just has to "accept" or be "thankful" to be on those meds all my life because I have an incurable chemical imbalance and that's my destiny.
So I'm going to find a way. I'm going to figure something out. I'm going to make a new discovery. Nobody should have to be locked out of beautiful experiences.
Cosmic joker, a recent sketch that I am hoping to turn into a painting! #art #psychedelicart #creativity
I've been taking harmala alkaloids for about a week in hopes to treat ocd/depression and my skin now has glowing dots under a black light all over my body (harmalas are fluorescent)! Maybe they deposited in my skin! None of my family members have glowing skin dots, just me. I'm all excited, it feels like I made a mini new discovery :) I'm curious if others who take harmalas end up with glowing skin as well.
❤️💛💚💙💜~HELLO THERE!~💜💙💚💛❤️
Lover of art, science, and cool plant alkaloids from South America.
The human helping run this account is an assistant professor of anatomy and physiology who has a secret obsession with cool molecules.