RYMAN BADGUY @RYMAN_BADGUY@qoto.org

Sometimes I have doubts on there being any point in the existence of what I want to accomplish.

Sometimes I worry I'm gonna make something bad or too generic or even get accused of copying or plagiarism, and sometimes I worry anything I think of would have been done before and not as a original as I thought.

Sometimes I have doubts about my own passion, sometimes I doubts about my confidence.

Sometimes I just, don't even get anything done, either because I'm afraid to, or I just don't have any desire to.

I fear, I fear I begun this project far too late, regardless of whether that was in or out of my circumstantial control.

I have now got my first commissioned very early days concept art for my post apocalyptic steampunk lite, horror, gothic, gaslamp fantasy, paranormal, post victorian guilded age world building project.

Though, as much as I wanna share it, I fear it's, way too early days, way too early. I'm just not sure when the right time to share it will be.

I really need a different codename for this project, listing all of its elements is a mouthful and oxygen expensive to say aloud. I have a codename, but I may rename the codename.

I have made.. some progress with the ever expanding rough plan, and a roadmap for one of its short stories.

Guess who got back into their Mastodon qoto?

Yeah you guess it.

Anyway hi it's been a while.

I am also on Newgrounds. https://ryman-badguy.newgrounds.com/

I can also be found at mastodon.gamedev.place.

Every time I make an account on a different server, I will add them here.

I recently got into a book called 'After London, or Wild England' by Richard Jefferies, a Victorian post apocalypse story written in 1885, at least 47 years before the atom was first split.

I'm not a game dev, I'm also not an artist, and I can't call myself a writer yet, but I think I can call myself a writer soonish potentially.

I uh, I think I did something wrong and I may have deleted someone's reply by mistake, if that person sees this, it was by mistake and you have my apologies.

Still trying to get the hang of Mastodon. It seems I have to create multiple mastodons or handles and then link them together to be able to interact with.. different.. servers? Spaces?

Look I'm.. I'm still trying to figure this place out, I'm sure I'll get the hang of it all soon enough.

I can't wait till the day I can get my world building project to a point where I can create and share my first short story series with it and just be able to tell more people about it and have it make sense. And even take it into more ambitious territory.

I will be commissioning someone I know for a concept art piece for it soon.

I can say right now is that it's a post apocalyptic victorian steampunk paranormal supernatural gothic gaslamp fantasy guilded age early 1900s to 1920s horror themed world. I got this idea from these dreams I had some years ago, they were all connected somehow too. I went to locations in this world.

I've made a start on the plan for a short story. I have a trust worthy friend that I share stuff with, I find it easier to talk to a trust worthy friend who won't spill the beans about it and then screencap the messages I send than I do remembering to write stuff down somewhere else.

I've been on Twitter for some time, and I had seen talk of Mastodon, so I decided to check it out, and try it for myself, that is how and why I am here.

Oh, and also identify as Atheist, I like Maritime Archeology, Maritime Biology and Maritime Technology. I like Weaponry, the technology and the history around, I think that's everything for now, I can't think of anything else off the top of my head.

I am from England, I was born in England, I was born in the North West, I am male, I am Bisexual though I suspect I may be something else, I am autistic with Aspergers syndrome, before I was under the impression I was Caucasian but then I found out about my genetic family history which actually had people in it with browner skin there for I am convinced I am mixed ethnicity or 'other' but I look Caucasian.

I was born on the 8th of July in the year 1992. I am narcissistic. I have learning difficulties though I'm not sure what kind perhaps mild. I like video games a lot, so much so I lived on them for ages, grew up on them, I like anime and I am very picky about anime, I like horror, I like decay and rust, I like shipwreck stuff, I like paranormal and supernatural stuff, I like furry stuff, I like zombie stuff, I like post apocalyptic stuff. I like Cyberpunk stuff. I like Steampunk stuff.

My subject interests are Victorian history, Shipwreck history, Viking and Nordic history, Technological history, Creative Writing, Art, Game development, space and planets and life out in space, the macabre and death, and I think even psychology.

Missed first assignment on the maths course I am on, behind on maths, already off to a bad start, shit, and double shit.

Uh, I am on Mastodon now, hello, hi, uh, I don't know what I'm doing yet nor do I know what I am talking about or posting yet.