@leahmcelrath I'd want to say something supportive and encouraging to you, but I know you don't really need that. Sometimes I find it helps when I see what I'm thinking in text, even if I'm pretty sure nobody else will understand or care. You already know what you value, and you give value where it is due. You can be sure you do *NOT* need to give that value where it isn't there for you.
Be Beautiful You!