@admitsWrongIfProven I'm afraid, I must confess, it is my greatest sorrow that I am guilty of this :(

@OpenComputeDesign Sorry, i was imprecise and lost in thought that i neglected to explain.
Please do check if any signs of affection you give are welcome, though.

@admitsWrongIfProven Don't be sorry. I have absolutely screwed up and caused damage. And I definitely deserve consequences.

I am ignorant in ways I don't know how to fix, but even so it is my own fault.

@OpenComputeDesign Is it still possible to ask about what you did wrong and learn from it? The willingness to do better is a good first step, and admitting wrong should help too.

@admitsWrongIfProven Oh boy, where do I start... (I'm a very problematic individual)

Around the time my little sister started puberty, I realized I wasn't gonna have her in my life forever before she'd go off to do her own thing. So I started showering her in all the affection I could. (At this point, it wasn't unwanted yet, although that doesn't mean it was a good idea or well executed as I'll get to)

Turns out, the socially incompetent person I am, I might have been going too far..

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@admitsWrongIfProven Because our parents started having private conversations with her about me and my behaviour. And after a while, banned us from spending too much time together, being alone together, sitting together, etc.

At this point I spend the next several years trying to secretly sneak time with her, ignorant of the fact she was, and becoming increasingly more so, traumatized of affection.

At this point I should also mention I have a long history of instability and depression

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