Dark, suicide
**Don't worry, I'm not gonna kill myself any time soon**
But, I really do want to kill myself. Like, as an aspirational goal. I _want_ to die, and _I_ want to be the one who kills me.
Maybe that's why I'm always sabotaging myself in everything else I want to do. Because having friends and having family and being known, all gets in the way of it. And I can't kill myself until all of that is gone.
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Dark, suicide
@OpenComputeDesign While my first impulse is always to want to see others happy, i am convinced that i need to accept it when/if someone does make that decision in a non-impulsive way.
I can't speak for anyone else, but i think such acceptance must be regardless of my own reasons to live (or not live). It's a thing of respecting others free choice about themselves.
So know that you can be perfectly happy and successful for years and then decide to do it, there is at least one person out there wo would not pull "but you were happy, permission revoked" shit.
I say go be happy when you can. If you change your mind later, your change of mind will still be valid.
Only thing that would strike me as bad would be having children and killing oneself before they grow up, but you are adamant on not having any, so that's not an issue.
Dark, suicide
@admitsWrongIfProven thank you