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Huh, i thought violence got normalized because it was done to actual human beings. Must be a hell of a song...

@chestycougth

@chestycougth
I might tomorrow - going to bed now.
Sleep well, chesty cough!

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@chestycougth
This one nobody noticed, by percentage... odd stuff.
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@Alice But what if your slapping and crawling routine was entertaining?
You might starve them to death... oops did i give away the strategy?

@OpenComputeDesign btw, the distressing thing i said a week or two ago was a song text.
Sorry for not making that clear, i liked the band for being aggressively sarcastic.

Ha, nearly forgot to clear that up. I am not perfect and there is no other way but embracing that. If "only dead women are beautiful" was my honest opinion i could never be part of any community :-)

@OpenComputeDesign I mean this was the point all along. If i thought it was, i would not have talked to you. There are a lot of people out there harming others, i may scream at them but i do not talk to them.

Good decision to not put anyone at risk, you are doing well. I'm sorry you are suffering, but you are not harming anyone, that's good. Take pride in that, there are sadly too many that do not do that.

@OpenComputeDesign Then it is not your fault.

@OpenComputeDesign Yep, dependency is to be taken seriously and not just be accpeted by default.

@OpenComputeDesign
Finding someone who is not only qualified on paper but actually a decent person is hard in general. I heard about that from people i know seeking therapy. I can see that this would be hard when you live in an area where there are like three people on every 100 square kilometers.

@chestycougth

@OpenComputeDesign So you do trial runs in controlled conditions. Have you never heard of engineering or are you so poisoned by current society that you would not consider a rational approach?

@OpenComputeDesign
Heh, funny. The music i am currently listening to just contained "meine gefühle werden abgestellt", translated "my feelings are turned off".
Pertinent?

@chestycougth

@OpenComputeDesign Generally... did you notice people stop caring in this general hellhole western civilization has become?
I think still caring and trying is a special thing.

@OpenComputeDesign Ofc, you want to care, i got that much.
Whatever happened to you was probably not planned or even thought about. You are the next iteration, thinking, caring.

Can you accept that while not perfect, you are trying?

@OpenComputeDesign And you accept the responsibility. Sounds good?

What about this: I'm sorry to hear you have to do so much to just not fuck up, that's an unfair burden to place on you. But i'm proud of you for bearing it.

@OpenComputeDesign I never said that you should be trusted... look at my toot again, will you? I'm not alone with vulnerable people either, who needs that kind of responsibility?

@chestycougth OCD does not fear being rejected, it's more about not hurting others.
Strange world there.

@OpenComputeDesign Dude, if you don't factor in outside influence, you're a puppet.
I'm all for being rational, but do it right, ffs.

Justice is not suffering for someone else. Justice is placing blame where it needs to be. Otherwise, you are just a support for the villain.

@OpenComputeDesign
Yeah, same. But ending one's life is awfully tedious and brings harm too, so i guess evasion beats the hammer of justice here?

@chestycougth

@OpenComputeDesign
Isn't that a bit black and white? Would you really wreck havoc if you relaxed? Are you sure, or just afraid and beating yourself up because you are not sure?

Not being alone with anyone vulnerable might be enough to provide safety in terms of not doing anything wrong, do you really need to beat yourself up to stop harm?