@empiricism thank you for this. I find talking about about my trauma and bad memories helps if with people I love and or respect. I usually find the humor in my experiences if I’m in a good mood so I have that. I used disassociate at night and memory hop where I’d focus on one memory until one further back came up and would just continue to do that until I fell asleep. I have a lot of core memories that I don’t like messing with to keep a more objective view of my past if that’s even possible.