There is no greater hell than being in America, particularly a city, and having a disease that requires you to need a controlled substance prescription (like Oxycodon, xanex, or even just sleeping pills like ambien).

When my injury first occured the pain was ungodily. I had a portion of my spine that basically exploded and spewed directly into the spinal column. It put extreme pressure on it and the pain was unimaginable. It was so bad when it first happened I was trapped in my bed for 2 days, couldnt even get up to pee, so pissed the bed trying. Finally had someone toss me a pain killer through my window and i took it which was just enough to get up and crawl to the doctor who is right next door to me thankfully. When I begged and cried asking for a pain killer just to get me to surgery or whatever treatment they wanted to do they thought I was faking and drug seeking so just dropped me as a patient.

I was in delirious inducing agony for months and every doctor i saw thought i was drug seeking and wouldnt even see me, let alone treat me (partly because when im in pain I dont show it). It was hell. Finally i got a special injection directly in my spine of high dose steroids, it made me function for a few weeks and i didnt need pain killers. I quickly took a plane over to the netherlands where the doctors are actually ethical. They treated me right, offered some pain pills, and ultimately got me in surgery quickly.. I only need pain pills for a week after surgery and then never touched them again. I am thankful for them but traumatized by american doctors.

Anyway, what I do need to take daily and for the rest of my life though is Ambien as I have something called Delayed Sleep-Wake Phase Disorder. The only way to treat it is ambient, a sleeping medication. With out im not an insomniac or anything, it just means my sleep phase shift by 1 - 2 hours every night, which would make it impossible for me to hold a job.

Anyway its a controlled substance and I go through the exact same problems getting it. Despite being diagnosed with a clear disease that needs it as a treatment they do everything they can to make it hard for me to get my dosage each month. They wont refill it till the day im empty, and even then give me resistance every single month. They make sure I go tot he doctor and need an appointment every month even though all they say is "what do you need?" I say "my medicine" they say "ok" and I leave. Problem is half the time complications mean i might get my medication later or not at all and if i miss it my sleep schedule wont recover for 2 - 4 weeks if i miss a whole day.

I'm really really sick of american doctors.