Gaming version of how I feel about needing to engage in life (slowly or much more) as the not engaging is basically a time-waster / time-lapse of the inevitable power struggle or dominance...

So while going gun-ho is not what I mean or suicide, it's about constant pressure and chipping away at the right things... which I see as ourselves more than structure or well-made Lose-Win where nobody really wins so we have to fight / shoot well amongst ourselves (engage)... else waste time... which is what is happening I believe if you don't talk to me basically without sounding full of myself but really there are little holes in my defence and basically you haven't played 'communication' perhaps to really know! (see my profile and answer partially else jump into chat with me and test the theory and consider it 'done' after - *no hidden alterer motives* other than saying / proving upfront we need to practice and therefore know more what we are doing aside from playing inside losing casinos and at least spend the time wisely with each other for more constructive outcomes)