@farah Get what you mean - at the same time it's a kind of passion or being passionate about something, mixed with lots of minor stuff like pride, etiquette(s), expectation... so many... like walking barefoot or things people feel effected (or "affected" as in emotions) so with so much discomfort people decide to react to something and probably feel like there isn't anyone to complain to...

and in you "go do something useful" literally there isn't much - it's all been steralized to watching others and then being tired and sleep deprived just to exist doesn't help even being off sleep just a bit!

I think I nailed it there... but yes there's a whole lot of distance and feelings (like if you never seen a type of culture before you need to get drunk with them or some big break in the barrier so it's 1st hand experience and not skirting around 3rd-hand bias).

I do feel like I have nothing better to do - and I've tested half the Fediverse to let me in / give me something / do anything and everything for free... people aren't there yet even for the good people... :[ but I'm still in the positive end of these results and search for more plants and people to grow with... 🌻 🌅