hikari @hikaritojiyu@qoto.org

The Chinese government has recently removed all the GPT-relatived apps from the app store in China.

This move is aimd at preventing Chinese citizens from accessing historical events that opposing the CCP.

这两天复盘了下英语学习进程，我是从去年4.18开始学习音标的，也就是已经有8个月的时间啦，从连yesterday都发音困难到现在流利发音，甚至比我高考、大学时期都要好很多，中间不能说悬梁刺股，但也是比以前付出了很多的努力，期间当然也有放弃，但是还是很开心的！

然后今天从长毛象上看到了一个叫rehold的网站，上面有详细的学习语言步骤，准备开始follow上面的步骤，再填充一天休闲时间的英语环境，总之，努力努力！

one of my collegues has tons of excuses to explain why she failed the program.

however, when it comes to communicate with customer, suddenly, she lost her tough only waiting for other people to deal with the problem

this job is driving me crazy, collegues keep annoying me at weekends. I just can't ease my mind at my rest day, and that's why I want to resign next year

今天其实做了蛮多事情的，无论是煮菜还是洗衣服还是学习英语，这还是建立在我昨晚只睡了2个小时的基础，换成以前可能已经崩溃了吧，今天居然还能维持人形，不愧是我！

走过那段被新冠管控到看不到尽头的绝望的日子以后，才发现心平气和是一种那么难得的情绪。

今晚居然很平静地看完了1个半小时的英语，没有急躁和焦虑，也不着急刷象或者是微博。

我想可能，这就是安全感呀，很可惜的是，这点安全感都会轻而易举地被摧毁。所以要更加坚持run！

🎴第一次做咖喱!很简单，吃起来突然感觉咖喱也是火锅的一种，反正也是先做锅底，然后所有食材一起倒进去就完事了。
一餐没吃完，第二餐加热时，想起我还有买椰浆，加进去，果然味道更奇妙了。
对做菜有了更大的信心。

🎴今天很积极主动地洗了被子跟衣服，甚至洗了两次锅（←which在动力缺少的时期我肯定不会干的。。。开放以后可以很明显觉察到自己的动力一下子回蓝了，啊，果然有希望就有动力，而以前那段惴惴不安、看不到期望的日子，真的不是人过的，ccp真可恶呀。

🎴看到老家至今还因为新冠拘留人，时不时动摇的心态又恢复起来，真的要run，run不了也至少要stay at 一线城市，目前木有技能线是会比较可惜，所以要抓紧学英文!今天念一念觉察到自己喉咙会变沙哑。看看后面要不要找点仿真试题来做做，加油，只要想做就会有办法!

🎴买了新手机!本来在犹豫的，但之前淘宝的二手手机一下子烧坏了充电口，大失所望，你说你们手机贩子换硬件就换硬件，怎么手头功夫这么垃圾呢，换了连充电口都没安好，这还不到半年呢。

然后淘了半天的闲鱼，准备找个真实的二手机，期待!希望后天能收到，还能再试试TNT嘻嘻

🎴这周末还减少了看手机的时间，都在听书，感觉眼睛的确恢复了不少，a good sign?下周看能不能一鼓作气出去跑跑!

🎴试了下双十一的鸭毛被子，果然很轻啊，但是没有想象中那么暖，接下来再体验一下。不过今天比之前回温一丢丢，而且感觉也开始适应冬天的节奏啦，啊冬天赶紧过去吧，已经迫不及待期待明年换工作了。说起这个就很想骂现在公司的同事跟老板，但是今天是感恩日常的练习，所以不要focus on 不能改变的事情，关注自己做的新事情吧，achive your goal

现在才知道原来“房间里充满了快活的空气”，字面上直译英文是“the room is alive with laughter”，但梗本身的嘲讽味还是没有翻出来就是了23333

just figure out that I probably need to choose to continues learning programming. the so-called design career is just not my thing. Don't want my whole life spending on copying like others in the industry.

Just tiding up my room and brushing my shoes yesterday, I felt satisfied and relaxed throughout out the day. I think putting things in control brings me a sense of security

Most chinese keep making fun of westerners "too politically correct", but they use 尼哥 as a homophonic chinese word as nigger. So racial discrimination that they even be aware of.

have 0 energy to do anything, only waitting for the endless suffer to come true

no matter what happened in the world, there are always r18 pics on the internet, which somehow comfors me a little bit

@freeschool wow, the idea you brought is very fresh to me. Yes, in deed, I used to talk to some foreigners in English at work, and I felt a little bit embarrassed because the whole conversation seemed to be so rude , and I thought that was because I was just a beginner in English and I was terrible at English.

As a native Mandarin speaker, it's true that what we talk is more than the object itself. However the reason is not only that we respect the nature, but I think that's because of the politics.

From ancient time, people were killed because the autocratic empire was not happy to hear of dissident, and the empire has the power to turture people, so people had to use metaphor to express what they real mean just in a safer way. As time passes, people talk in this indrect way.

In fact, English helps me to express our suffering directly , and to speak out is really a relief for me. Hope we all feel free, no matter what language we use : )

using English to describe my feel seems to change my emotion a little bit, a little surprise : )

self-learing is painful, because there will be no resprond to tell you whether you're good or bad, right or wrong.

but I will try my best to make it fun!

just want to record my daily life and feel, try to practice my English at the same time