also, don't forget to look at your own progress. look at the entire road you've been down, since before it started, hopefully you've also made incredible progress, just look at that road behind you, look at all you've done and accomplished, i just hope whoever is listening that's it's something which feels positive and incites aspiration. if it doesn't, it's never too late to do something else. just because you've supported something in the past, doesn't mean you have to continue, or that you're wrong for advocating against it