iamo @iamo@qoto.org

i dno what to do, all i can do for now is wait

just so tired of all the harm, loneliness, and bullshit. so tired of needing to defend myself. so tired of not being safe anywhere. so tired of being so tired. so tired of being hurt. so tired of so much suffering. so tired of being so stuck. so tired of having debts at debt collectors getting worse every second. so tired of broken promises, lies, trolls, nazis. so tired of not having the tools. resources, and networks to defend or protect myself. so tired of not having the space and time to heal

it's still so difficult, everyday, to feel like i even want to be alive anymore. it's so difficult to survive everyday

I'm so tired of being harmed

i like fedi as an idea, and i had way more hopes for this space, but it's been incredibly harmful. I'm so tired of harmful people and harmful social spaces that aren't conducive to friendship or healing

i dno why I'm back here anymore

i don't feel safe on fedi at all, this does not feel like a safe. fun, or friendly place to me. it doesn't feel like any semblance of a positive social space that i needed it to be

it's just so hard to be here after so many people hurt me here and attacked me and trolled about their own harm

no wonder everyone good left

fedi is hell site

*shudders*

Give Me One Reason | Tracy Chapman https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aIIfx_UbnHI

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Faith | George Micheal https://invidio.us/watch?v=NPUNsN-0Lz4

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Bohemian Rhapsody | Queen
https://invidio.us/watch?v=axAtWjn3MfI

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#np #nowplaing #fediplay

I'm still hear, we're still standing and breathing

<333

wherever you are, i hope you're well and celebrating the opportunity for life that you do have

don't let anybody take away or diminish your own self worth, little yaba, you were born from stars far beyond this place

hello little blumbee, i miss the way you posted. i miss the way you looked in your old school jean shorts and baseball cap. i miss the way you were shy when truly you lit up the day like a full moon on the darkest of nights. i miss the day i saw you there walking by the graveyard

sinking into your love | ソニコン https://sonicon.bandcamp.com/track/sinking-into-your-love

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hotel beverly | ソニコン https://sonicon.bandcamp.com/track/hotel-beverly

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Delicate | Taylor Swift https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pISXJ6ChdGI

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