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Beforelife, afterlife. It's all the same. Time is an illusion. So say the sages. So say the physicists.
Within the confines of the illusion, some might say we decided all the parameters of our incarnation before we were born. We chose our parents. We chose our DNA, etc.
Perhaps once you see enough beautiful inexplicable awe inspiring things, you'll realize that there is far more going on than you can imagine.
Then again... maybe not.