Ok, the Chinese society makes me sick. Especially when "enjoy Japanese culture" is guilty and will be publicly humiliated.

I fixed my ten years old bicycle today, but I have no idea how to fix society and the people. The unsourced hate filled everyone (maybe the majority)'s brain. They hate rich people, they hate Japanese people, they hate Americans, they hate Trump and Biden, and they hate everyone who lives better than him, possibly the one they never met. And they indulgent violence against women (and LGTB+ people), against Ukrain civil, and against people who disagree with them. I post this in English. And hopefully, they don't have enough patience to read this. But society is going this way. And one day, the violence might be on me. Nobody can escape.

A lot of people suggest to me that I should move to another country. I can't. I just can't let it go. I still have friends and families. They won't move in the visible future or are too old to fit into a new society. They are my closest people. And I can't geographically estrange from them. I need them, and they need me, too.

I'm experiencing the change, but I can't accurately pinpoint why we're here. From the education I got, this feels not right. And what scared me more? The education is changed. When I was young, I was not told to hate people I had never met. I was told to be a human who could improve society. And the country is not the boundary. People from different countries can work together towards the same goal. Now the children start hating people they have never met, while they still like Japanese anime, American movies, etc. I don't know how they can be so contradictory, but this scared me. When they grow up, I can't imagine how society will be shaped by them.

And... Talking about "being a human who could improve society", I failed to do that. But I still try my best to be a good person, a healthy friend. I would share happiness and sadness with my family and friends. I would try my best to help them when I need, without accounting for how much I would spend and get. (So, as a computer science student, the most frequent thing I do is fixing others computers, routers, networks, LOL)

I wrote a lot in this post. I don't know what I want to express; I just wrote what I think while typing. It will possibly change nothing, or maybe the police would ask(force) me to delete this post or arrest me because of this post. I don't know. I'm just speaking, and it's my right (for now).

Anyway, I'm finished. And now it's midnight in UTC+8. Goodnight to all reached here. And thank you for your reading and your time. Have a nice day :)