Stark from Earth @ LS @tonyfromls@qoto.org

Officially started my journey in Theoretical Physics via self-study with the addition of the following books:

- Methods of Theoretical Physics by Morse and Feshbach
- Methods of Mathematical Physics by Jeffreys and Jeffreys
- Classical Mathematical Physics by Walter Thirring

Studying all these books in depth while being guided by Leonard Susskind's "Theoretical Minimum" lecture series and books will give me a well rounded and a strong theoretical physics background at the advanced undergraduate or early graduate level Theoretical Physics treatment.

Add to this my formal studies in BSEE and finishing it in the future will make me a versatile Electrical Engineer with a Theoretical Physics background and having the capabilities of an applied physicist because of the mix of EE and Theo.Phys. will enable me to verge on cutting edge science and tech projects.

Anyways, just got home today from visiting office this week.

Hate it when I am in the middle of writing something and then power outage suddenly comes. WTF.

Went to the university this morning to process dropping for all courses this 2nd semester before I can pull out my transfer credentials and go back to my previous university from last year.

Started on advanced mechanics and read on the Lagrangian L. Will then proceed later minimizing the process of the Action by using the Euler-Lagrangian.

Meanwhile I am doing my gym workouts.

Didn't started back on the Theoretical Minimum but instead I started on theoretical physics treatment of Scalar fields from the book of Morse and Feshbach

Studying some intro to Lagrangian Mechanics comparing some simple systems being solve using Newtonian and then being solved using Lagrangian.

After this I will get back to the Theoretical Minimum of Susskind.

Preparing for a gym and will get back to where I left on the Theoretical Minimum of professor Susskind.

Decided yesterday to drop from the 2nd semester of the BSEE program due to continous delay of prelim exams (Integral Calculus, I already had midterms) and midterm exam (Engineering Data Analysis, I already had prelims), considering that we are already in the Finals and I have not studied yet for the topics in Finals. There is also exams for the Material Science and Engineering and then some frustrations on this part because the lectures are only focusing on old school material science and engineering for BSEE and focusing on history and testing technologies with little attention given to the physical and chemical properties and the lack of atomic level treatment of the course.

This has been worsened by the hectic demands at work at the moment and just like yesterday I was planning to take the exam but instead I have to travel to Manila for some important task at work.

Best part is that the transfer credentials were not given yet to the new university so I can still continue my studies from the one from last year without reflecting my drop of the courses from this semester in the new university.

Did a gym today.

Regarding the sports car, I realized that my negative equity for it is around 1/3 of the total cost to purchase under bank financing.

That makes the total cost of the car to 3M and a rough 1/3 of it is my negative equity. I could start 3 coffee shop business for that amount. Not good.

I have decided to get my very first sports car. The car is 2025 Mazda Miata MX-5 ND-3 2.0L MT Soft Top.

Will take sometime for the bank approval for financing because I don't want my a big chunk of my savings taken. Paper works will add up, and then the 3 month waiting period once it has been ordered from Japan as that is the time the car will be assembled and shipped to PH.

It's a whooping 2.3M Php, or comparable to purchasing 2 entry level Toyota Hilux, or roughly getting 2 high end sedans.

I'll get a lot of freebies in 5 years including free PMS and free servicing in that timeframe.

Did a gym workout this after after weeks of hiatus.

Getting ready for the exam tomorrow but because of the heat index classes are suspended. Let see if I can have the exam on Friday instead.

I am not happy with the turn out of events.

First the plan that shifted my focus temporarily from last year and failed to meet the plan's timeline milestone this year frustrated me because it messed up things when I shifted to that plan and then shifted back to the original plan.

Second I am not happy with my schooling being late in the second semester and because it proved not easy to cope up specially with the lack of a syllabus and only relying with my classmates notes. In addition the lectures slides were somehow vague and because the lessons were separated in terms of integration techniques but then when I came back to prelim sections the slides were discussing direct integration without using u-sub techniques but via trigo properties then I saw in my classmates notes they were actually using u-sub techniques from the start. It gave an additional headache with me getting stuck on some problems for a long time only to realize they still solved it with u-sub method. Another thing is that in calculus it was agreed upon that the exam that was given to me already covers midterms and prelims and with the tight schedule it's going putting me in the loosing end if things were flipped like what happened when my instructor last week decided that I take another exam for prelims which was not the first agreement and because of it I decided to review again delaying the exam on EDA because of this.

Third, add the fact that the performance expectations in Manila has been squeezed as part of the objective to raise the technical competencies for the Manila team and this entailed lots of deliverables and lots of stress at work while trying to cope up with the schooling. And then other departments are having attitude for tech issues that is from their side and wanting our side of the team to do the solving. Managers are becoming rude due to the stress.

Back at the university, as another factor, while I am at the mercy of racing for the already finished prelims and exams, I heard older professors there trash talking the university I came from and said that students from my previous university they are fluncking at the current university. I know such talk is more about political taking the good image in terms of competition but that is low and is giving me the impression that I will fail too not because of my lack of capabilities but because events are not in favor of me.

Fifth factor now is that I remember that all subjects or courses from the previous university has a module and that means the course syllabus being taught to students are all uniform, solves the same problems, have the same examples, discusses the same topics and is a big help for working students like me who from time to time might not be able to attend lectures in real time.

I think I will let the second semester finish then I will come back to the previous university from last year. I will be faced with the same problems again there where students will rely on me during group activities but that is fine as long as it will serve me in my learning journey and is in favor of my situation as a working student.

Lessons learned, do not trade stability for risk. Meaning stability must be maintained and if risk is wanted for growth then it can be given space in the plans but not to let it overtake or replace stable plans.

Been spending countless hours solving trigonometric integrals using direct integration with identities.

I just realized that the examples in the lectures for prelims were not solved that way but instead they still used substitution

Integrals using transformation of trigonometric functions are bloody

I am running out of 1 rim of yellow pad paper from practicing integration problem solving

Feet hurts. Did an average run last night for 10km after a month of hiatus.

Now I am back to focus on integrals involving trigonometric functions including inverse trigonometric functions, and the use of double angle identity.

Not sure why my instructor decided to give me a separate prelims exam that was supposed to be on Wednesday but because my stomach hurts and I was having LBM with blood on my stool I didn't show up and asked for it to be moved on Monday because Thursday and Friday I can't go to university due to some deadlines at work.

For now I have broke the fast since Thursday and my stomach getting good now. Second Ramadan in a row where I am not able to fast due to problems with my stomach. Last year I got Ulcer. Looks like the same this year

Just finished my prelims and midterms exams on Calculus 2 and Material Science and Engineering.

There were questions on Material Science and Engineering which I didn't see in the reference textbook, could be a side note from the lecturer.

In the differential calculus class last year we were allowed to use our scientific calculators but the exams included super difficult rational equations involved in the differential equations. In the integral calculus exam today, I took the special exam at the faculty office and I was not allowed to use my scientific calculator. I don't see anything hard on the equations except for the tricky involvement of trigonometric functions. Maybe the lack of hardness was due to the fact that it is already isolated on the integral constant.

At Manila today because I was locked out from my work laptop and needed a specific IT department to resolve it.

On the other hand I saw professor Jeffrey Sachs speech at the EU parliament.

Although I am pro Ukraine, I agree on Sachs points during his speech.