This isn't a knock on the fediverse - I have tremendous respect for the community here, or I wouldn't even post this - but the cratering of social media by oligarchs in the last year or five just makes me so unbelievably sad sometimes. These incredible communities have been destroyed by greed and it makes it so hard to invest emotionally in anything any more. This is particularly hard when you're an introvert & those spaces were a huge support. I wonder how many, like me, just haven't recovered.

I used to want to participate and be a part of online communities and now I just post a photo here and there and dip out because every place I've ever felt a part of burned to the ground. That's not something I like or feel good about, btw, but I also have a really hard time "being myself" anywhere and seeing rich douches torch my home again and again makes it so hard to invest energy in rebuilding. Especially when energy is so hard to come by. The internet is a goddamn mess right now.