If you need a crisis hotline but talking on the phone is a barrier for you for any reason the trevor project is a great alternative. It is a hotline you can do via text message.
If you need help please reach out to them. My DM is always open to and anyone having a hard time needing someone to talk to is always welcome to reach out to me.
@Citrine I guess the hotline has caller ID and you didnt block your number (not that you should have to, there is an assumption of trust)