.? god fucking dammit we just saw a thread about how bad delta is and urging everycreature to isolate again and /ugh/ I don't want to things were /just/ starting to get better and now we're going right the fuck back I /can't/ I want to die

.? no nice social things for me: pandemic. /thanks/ I fucking hate it just go ahead and kill me

.? I'm so upset. We did everything right. We isolated for the whole thing. It hit us hard. We've been wearing masks since March. We did nothing outside but the critical stuff for more than a year. We were hyper fucking aware of every little thing we touched.

now we were just starting to relax and enjoy life a little and, I dunno, /meet some desperate fucking needs/ and /this shit/ happens. like it just *wasn't enough.* ffuuuuuuuuuckkk.

.? /everything/ wants us to die. capitalism. the virus. half of the extant fucking nation-states.

fine! I give up! kill me!

.? ha. this is new, isn't it. yeah, we don't normally post this stuff…

.? …you know what this is? this is just the latest in the long-running saga of /nothing we do is ever good enough for the world/.

oh, sure, we're good enough for the creatures near us. and we love and appreciate them.

but we have never been good enough for the world, and maybe we never will be, and so we just get all of the hardship all of the time forever.

i would like very much to just go home and stop worrying about all of this bullshit, but that would require either the world to stop being fucking shitty real quick (ha, fat chance) or somecreature to take us in (which nocreature has the capacity to do).

fine. can i just die then?

.? whose ego do i have to insult to get killed around here

.? duck duck go causes worth dying for

.? so my choices are to revert and suffer in silence for another year, or two years, or half a decade, however long this trash fire lasts
or to make exceptions…and become /that asshole/, the horrible person that flouts the precautions and gets creatures killed.
/lovely./

.? hey is suicide a valid option? I mean, it's a good precaution, right? can't spread the virus if you're dead and cremated! I know being vaccinated isn't enough; this is a much surer bet.

.hg *LONG, DRAWN-OUT SCREAMHOWL*