software dev, looking for work atm
I'm a bit pathetic and have no self-confidence😅
Hardwork, what is that? I have random spurts of motivation. Often times I have no idea what the person talking to me is saying, and I imagine that the speaker knows too well by the expression on my face.
For some reason I decided to acquire a CS degree even though I've never been especially talented at math, and I tend to struggle with its many abstractions: "From this proposition, it follows that...yes, to YOU, perhaps...".
I once spent 8 hours on a saturday writing a Pong clone with C++/allegro. It was the first time I found a meaningful way to apply the math I learned: If the ball is a circle and the paddle is rectangle, I need to determine where the edge of the ball intersects with the edge of the paddle, which is...the tangent line? That's neat!
I still don't know what to do with calculus: Integration by trignometric substitution...great. Perhaps I haven't been creative enough.
I've spent some time reading books that interest me, some of which are:
"E Unibus Pluram: Television and U.S. Fiction" by D. F. Wallace
"This is Water" by D. F. Wallace
"Paul's Case" by Willa Cather
"The Shock Doctrine" by Naomi Klein
"How to Read a Book" by Adler and van Doren
"Brave New World" by A. Huxley
"Amusing Ourselves to Death" by N. Postman
"Thus Spoke Zarathustra" by Nietzsche
"The Societ of the Spectacle" by G. Debord
"One Dimensional Man" by H. Marcuse
"Postmodernism" by F. Jameson
"A People's History of the United States" by H. Zinn
"Capitalist Realism" by M. Fisher
"Custom Reality and You" by P. Coffin
In terms of music, I mostly listen to whatever local bands my friends listen to. I've never been to a concert but I've been to a few local shows. Some bands I've listened to are: Hop Along, The Front Bottoms, Carseat Headrest, Lilith (lilithworldwide), Slaughter Beach Dog, American Football, Modern Baseball, Birdspotter (birdspotterpa), Blind Pilot, and Neutral Milk Hotel.
In addition to contemporary music, I have also recently been exploring the classical: Tchaikovsky, Debussy, Chopin, Liszt, and Satie.
Finally, I've quite recently begun exploring jazz. To date, I've only listented to "Portrait in Jazz" by the Bill Evans Trio.
I have some experience playing the guitar, though I do not know many songs. One song I learned to play recently is "Three Rounds and a Sound" by Blind Pilot.
In addition to guitar, I very recently begun learning the piano. At time of writing, I am very near able to play Satie's "Gymnopedie No. 1" at length.
I tend to stay away from movies, but I enjoy "The Shining" by S. Kubrick.
For as long as I can remember, I have been exceptionally nervous and hesistant when it comes to taking risks.
I enjoy playing with GNU/Linux, especially with terminal commands.
I tend to be easily distracted and to have trouble concentrating.