DaveTLV @Surasanji@qoto.org

@johnrandom@cryptids.online regardless, I forgive you.

@root I love games, though, and have fun even when I am bad at them. :)

@SquidPresident@cryptids.online I only recognize one monterrey, and that is the heroic rescue ranger Monterrey Jack.

@root I am terrible at SSB. Just terrible.

@EdgarAllanFoe those damn dirty apes!

@johnrandom@cryptids.online what should the podcast be about?

@johnrandom@cryptids.online flat. Level. Smooth. 8/10.

@EdgarAllanFoe I feel safer already.

@johnrandom@cryptids.online I agree.

@root It's really nice upbeat happy music. I'm glad you like them, because I didn't go much further than seeing 'Slime Girls' before I was like 'GASP, ELLE MIGHT LIKE THIS THING!'

@root This might be silly, but I was randomly playing music in Spotify and I came across a band called 'Slime Girls' and immediately thought of you, internet friend.

Here is link to an album: https://open.spotify.com/album/21XxA7Nn9G1CjVswWF3I5E

@johnrandom@cryptids.online is that like a pokemon?

@jacethechicken yes. You'd also become a nutsack because you are what you eat.

@horrowfide@mastodon.social A+ Snouts.

@johnrandom@cryptids.online Kitty!

@freemo That's part of it, it's also just not having coping mechanisms in place or any real understanding of this thing.

I can remember very clearly how I was when I first presented at 17. For years I couldn't do anything. Couldn't work, or live a life outside of my bedroom. It was devastating. A mental tornado blew through my life and broke it to pieces.

I am lucky to have friends here who are a support network to me. Luckily, I know who my real friends are because only real friends can stick with you through the bullshit I've put some of my friends through due to this disease.

I've got it, though. I won't give up. I want a nice, comfortable life- I've kept my goal reasonable. So far, so good! :D

@freemo I have what is considered a 'moderate-severe' case of Bipolar Type 2.

I refuse to not fight it, though. It's like brain diabetes- I have to change my life because of it, of course, but it's a part of me. I have to do everything humanly possible to not let it negatively impact my quality of life.

I don't always succeed, but I am well medicated here and under treatment which helps things. I will admit that one of the things I hate most is how the disease stole so much from me when I was younger. Bipolar is the reason I wasn't able to do college properly. It's gotten in the way of my relationships and other health.

Still, I'm in a better place now. It's taught me to love the day I'm in, because tomorrow for no reason whatsoever, I might just want to die and everything will be tainted with that melancholy.

On the whole, I'm better than I was, but still more to do.