I'm planning on making a comeback. The summary is that my immune system is trash. I've "accepted" that my life will never be normal and pain is part of it, attempting to numb it only makes things worse. The mind pills my psychiatrist prescribed were definitely fucking me up real bad and causing super negative suicidal thoughts so I'm staying far away from any mind altering drugs.

No more LSD, amphetamines, psilocybin, DMT, Ritalin, alcohol or antidepressants. Fuck all of that. From now on, meditation and exercise only. Accept suffering. Work with what I got.