It is now day three of war. I have more or less relized the scale and the consequences of the events and worked out the rough plan of my actions. It’s going to take a lot of work, but I’ll get through this. There are a few complications.

1) Russia can’t buy chemicals from USA anymore. It makes it more difficult to do work as stuff that is made here is not great and what China sells is often quite shite.
2) Germany seized all the scientific projects with Russia, and there were plenty. I think the rest of Europe will follow along soon. And there are few facilities in Russia, most resources spent in the last years were aimed at getting access to foreign ones. Mainly, you guessed it, German.
3) If I happen to drop out of University, I get mobilized and sent to war. Which is not exactly what I aspire to do with my life. Killing humans is not on my to-do list and, I hope, never will be.
4) No CPUs and other components for the next 5+ years, probably. It’s a good thing I use linux and pretty much any computer will work. My i3-8xxx should last me a few more years before giving up and by that time I hope to get the hell away.

Correction to n.4: China will import their computers, huawei and xiaomi and maybe others. I may upgrade to these. but who says China will keep getting their CPUs?..

The transition is very interesting. I went to sleep in my own bed in a peaceful country and woke up in a war without moving an inch. Frightening.

My new hobby – ab initio quantum computations. This one shows sodium alginate molecular orbitals.

So I put together a quick article on giving a talk. Inspired by my experience last Friday.
https://academicalnerd.blogspot.com/2022/01/on-public-speaking.html

I switched to journalling and planning on paper this year. Been loving it so far.

https://academicalnerd.blogspot.com/2022/01/analogue-note-taking-digital-mess-we.html

The long-term planning boils down to a simple algorithm:

1) Identify end goal, feasible for your capabilities and the timeframe, a year in this case.
2) Break it down into smaller milestones, assuming linear progress (for the sake of simplicity). Quaters work well.
3) Break the milestones into steps, in this case I use monthly goals as an outline.
4) Consider the processes that are likely to bring you to the end goal and design them.
5) Keep going back to the initial plan and readjusting based on the experience.

It is a difficult process to tacle, in part because it is frustrating to face the uncertainty. But the rewards, I believe, are worth it.

I am now in the process of annual review and planning. This will take me a few days on and off to finish, as there are some 300 daily notes and two small notebooks.

The review will include notable events and parties, some key ideas and lessons, and a list of accomplishments.

The planning part will take longer, as I plan on redoing my entire setup to lean towards analogue note-taking and minimalistic digital workflow, that would link together all or almost all of my work as a scientist, writer, teacher and - lately - game developer. I’ll post a few updates on this as I go.

2021-12-24

The annual review turned out to be a surprisingly pleasant thing to do. I didn’t reach all my goals but did some significant progress and even managed to do some stuff outside of my initial intentions.

However, I have no slightest idea where will the next year take me. It will be an interesting adventure.

Turns out I am greedy. Not for money, as I usually have enough thanks to my parents and workaholism.

I am greedy for new hobbies, projects and ideas. Once there is an opening in my schedule, I’ll immideatly try to fill it with something, whether it be a coding project, lab work or new piece of writing.

Yesterday there was a moment where I caught myself and gor an upper hand: instead of putting “outline new article” on a todo list, I left the line blank. A small yet important victory and a step towards a more sustainable life.

Update 3: side-hustles.

I’ve been teaching a couple of students on and off, and this was a nice experience. Now I managed to get into copywriting for a job search platform which I won’t name for now. They publish guest posts on various blogs to advertise themselves. It is not the best writing I could do, but I can hone my writing, especially in English as I’m still not native speaker.

Update 2: life.

How in the world do my parents cope with all the shit they have tyo cope with? The question I asked some time ago. The answer quickly came to me: they don’t. Smoking, wine, sleeping in and burying themselves in work and household chores to not think about the situation.

Now the shit piled up on my plate as well, with stress from work and family life. And I seem to somehow have far more resources than I anticipated. As long as there is some time to rest and process the events of the week (Saturday is off-limits for this reason), everything is more or less okay.

Reading about psychology and philosophy helps a lot, especially stoicism. For some reason I find it quite calming to read.

Update 1: work.

My scientific advisor fucked up the communication and as a result I had a month of work with tight deadline, actually the tightest I ever had relative to amount of work.

This led to a pile of messy code I’ll have to sort out at some point, but it’s okay because now everything is in source control and I won’t irreversibly break anything. Which happened a few times before. Shame I wasnt using git before. Better late than never, I guess.

Now I’ll need to submit literature review draft by January, duh. A lot of work but at least I know what to do and a third of it I did in advance back in September.

Ugh. Alright, this semester is tough. The past month was a chaotic turmoil of deadlines and other bullshit, but I managed to do some important things and get back into the writing habit. So here we are.

I’ll post a few updates here once today’s work is done.

The winter is nigh, and warming beverages are in order.

Cocoa recipe - for two cups

• 600 ml of milk
• half a glass of hot water
• 30 g of cocoa powder
• spices to taste (I use cinnamon and cloves)
• sugar to taste (2 teaspoons is a good start)

Put dry components in a pot, distribute evenly around the bottom and pour boiling water in. Thoroughly mix cocoa with water and make sure no dry powder is left. Then pour the milk in and put on the stove. Adjust the fire so that it takes about ten minutes to almost boil the milk. Take the pot off the stove just before boiling and pour to cups. Preheat them if you feel fancy.

Some remarks to this recipe are in order.

1) Try adding some pepper, red or black, to make the beverage more “warming”. Try nutmeg or any spice you have in the counter.
2) Hot water in the beginning is important: it wets hydrophobic cocoa powder and extracts plenty of teste from it and spices.
3) Try adding cornstarch - it doesn’t have flavour but makes the drink thicker.

Credit to Max Frei and the most entertaining cookbook I have ever read.

2021-09-18

Being articulate and precise is very important. Usually this is related to speech or writing. But there is no reason to not expand this statement to other domain. Be concise in your words and actions, in your code and your drawing. Say, write, draw and program exactly what’s necessary, in the most compact and efficient way possible. Your ability to align action with intent is what separates failure from triumph. This - and luck, but you can’t exactly control your fortune, so focusing on former makes more sense.

2021-09-15

There is a subject in my university called “basics of life safety”. In order to pass it, the student needs to submit hand-written notes for each lecture two days before the next one starts. Because of remote learning in the university, the teacher just sends us slides and asks for photocopied notes. It takes roughly three to four hours to make notes he’ll be satisfied with, weekly, and the subject has nothing to do neither with my major nor with objective reality (we can’t choose courses here).

This made me think a lot about the sense of meaning and how it is important to me. It’s much easier to do something whenever there is a clear result and, even better, a correlation between your actions and the result. It is obviously not the case with this course and with large part of the curriculum. Even my laboratory research largely depends on others’ work an I can only do so much - so few, in fact - to speed things up.

This lead me to post a CV on a popular cite. I crave meaning and almost none is left in things I do routinely. This seems to have an impact on me, more significant than I initially thought. Things need to be sustainable and now they aren’t. I’ve visited one interview already and waiting for another one. Maybe this is a beginning of something new and exciting, who knows.

2021-09-07

Lazy Sunday morning: autumn sun is hitting window glass, throwing shadows all around the place, and your significant other is happily asleep in the next room. You need a warm, lazy breakfast, to accompany this blissfull carelessness. I suggest the souffle omelette. It’s easy, I promise; let me guide you.

For two persons:

• two eggs;
• a glass (200ml) of milk;
• tablespoon worth of flour.

Throw everything into a large bowl, whisk thoroughly for a minute. Now put some olive oil on a pan, set the stove to the lowest heat possible and pour the eggs. You can put your favourite topping now, or omit this altogether. Close the lid and wait for a while - ten minutes or so, until the middle is nice and solid. Serve with toasts or anything else that comes to mind.

So I recreated Obsidian’s ability to build a graph chart of notes that shows links between them. The script renders it in the browser using a pyvis package. My very first github repo, yay!

https://github.com/academicalnerd/nodes

#python #zettelkasten #github

2021-09-01

Time to get back to my writing habit here, on qoto. I had a good holiday this summer, finally, but things got rough towards the end of August. I’m looking for people to tutor math and chemistry now, with an occasional English lesson on side. This is pretty much the only way I can earn money while studying and keeping my grades decent, as classes alone will take ~20 hours every week, not including homework and revision.

Here are some things I’ve been up to.

1) Maps Of Meaning - a series of lectures on philosophy, psychology and symbols and human culture. I highly recommend giving it a shot, especially in the form of a podcast (I use google podcasts).

2) Vim - lerning keystrokes and pretty much using it as my main editor except for matlab IDE. It is convenient once you get used to moving around.

3) Linux - still Pop OS with alacritty. Cosmic desktop is cool, but I barely use any features. I must say, however, that the whole thing runs smoother than before and most bugs from precious releases are eliminated.

4) Writing - daily or almost daily, in markdown. This very text is being written in markdown, actually, I’ll just copy it from today’s note. Everything is in vim (or markor on phone), synced via syncthing.

5) Python - I decided to learn the bloody thing. After a long time of working primarily with C++ and, out of necessity, with matlab. I don’t like the indentation and dynamic types bug me, but I must admit that it is quite convenient tool, especially for quick and short solutions.

#life #linux #vim #blog

2021-08-22

This summer was quite challenging in a lot of ways. I think there will be a longer post near the end of August, detailing lessons and achievements for the past two months.