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The vile and toxic shit I've been dealing with from outtside of QOTO has put my stress levels to a point I've never expiernced before... It is effectively my health both mental and physical. I am having trouble sleeping, and is very quickly moving from anxiety to depression to a point where it is very dangerous for my health..
My blood pressure is so high right now it would be enough to get me admitted to the emergency room alone.
The really messed up part is if all these lies and toxicity wind up killing me these people are so horrible they would probably dance on my grave....
Frankly im not sure where to go from here. But I do want to say thank you foe the overwhelming support from so many of you, it helps.
@freemo I don't exactly know what's happening with you, but please direct all your resources to get on your feet, improve your mental and physical health. Don't be ashamed to ask for help and go to a psychologist. I've been spiraling down recently because my brain couldn't process the events that were unfolding in the world. A psychologist will not make the problems go away, but they will give you the tools to stabilize your head. You are a good person, don't give up.
@biomedmax I have no problem seeing a psychologist... though im not sure its that simple.. I have to deal with highly stressful shitt and have limited opttions to disengage.