The vile and toxic shit I've been dealing with from outtside of QOTO has put my stress levels to a point I've never expiernced before... It is effectively my health both mental and physical. I am having trouble sleeping, and is very quickly moving from anxiety to depression to a point where it is very dangerous for my health..

My blood pressure is so high right now it would be enough to get me admitted to the emergency room alone.

The really messed up part is if all these lies and toxicity wind up killing me these people are so horrible they would probably dance on my grave....

Frankly im not sure where to go from here. But I do want to say thank you foe the overwhelming support from so many of you, it helps.

@freemo Maybe step away for a bit? We love having you here but if you need a break, you need a break.

@mkb Unfortunately the drama is already getting to our other moderators as well, they wont be going anywhere but they will likely be disengaging for ttheir own health as well.. so not only is it on my shoulders now, but itt means i have to deal with all the load to help alleviate them.

@freemo Ooof, that sucks.

I don’t know if it is helpful, but sometimes when Reddit toxicity has a long flare-up I spend less time evaluating and start handing out bans more aggressively.

It’s mostly a time/sanity preserving me but it actually seems to result in drama dying down not long after I start. (It’s hard to know what’s actually causal, of course.)

Anyway, I still encourage you to set what boundaries you can for your own well-being.