@iankenway Woah dude !
May you complete what you wanted and let this gain you a perspective in which living is highlighted...
I'm probably too real but an audio conversation is welcome and probably you wouldn't even consider this but I'm reaching out... perhaps a cup of tea and let me know when you can go for audio chat with like-minded / pleasant stranger - who can talk about himself if you're not into your thing so much...
https://meet.jit.si/chataboutit