天空вℓσи∂ @skyblond@qoto.org

Returned the tape drive back to seller.

Somehow the ltfs keep failing on windows. I think it might be hba card's issue. The official ltt tools passed the tape drive and cartridge test, so shouldn't be hardware issue.

lto6！

@Candinya 工程师上错号了（

By "but I never think it's a job", I mean I never think it will be my job. I help my friends with their computer problems for free. I think charging them for those issues is not appropriate. Sometimes I do spent a lot of time, but it's interesting.

Should one stick with his dream anyway, or just take what he has at the moment and wait for chances?

I graduated in 2022 with a Bachelor's degree in Computer science. But now it's over a year that I still failed to get a job in this crowded city (aka Beijing). From 7+ years ago I started learning Java and programming (mainly because of Minecraft, the Java edition of course), and I rarely work on other languages. After graduation, it comes with the territory, I want to work as a Java programmer (I mean, kotlin might count as Java, in my perspective). But with countless training classes and Layoffs, I can't get a job writing Java/Kotlin.

I don't know how job hunting works in other places, but here in China people don't care what you can or capable of doing something, but care what job/experience you have done in the past, kind of proof that you can do something. To me, that's kind of locked in someone's life way in a certain trajectory. You code once, you code forever, since you only have a job to code. You didn't code once, then you can't code forever, since you don't have a job/intern and people don't even give you a chance (because there are too many people who did that same thing before).

Recently I've been thinking (yeah, when I'm not fighting with my emotions which are hard to control), should I try another path? Like Ops, the one who fix your broken printer in the company, etc. I do help people building PCs, fix their networks, and some other issues with computers, but I never think it's a job. And I didn't see any growth in that path. And I don't think being a DC Ops will give you extra points when migrate. Also it's less paid. However, this might be the most likely job I will get in the near future.

What should I choose?

@Candinya 可能是事务把数据库锁住了？

不备份就好了（bushi

昨天结束了将近50天的国庆旅行。其实也不算是旅行，只不过是换了个地方和认识的人一起住了一段时间。期间做做饭，买买菜，一起出去玩，然后受伤、养伤。这可能是我近几年中最快乐的一段时间，不用想毕业后找不到工作的事情，不用想家里又发生了什么事，也不用想怎么面对那些处于两难境地的关系。总之，这段时间放佛让我窥见到了我的生活原本该有的样子：不富裕，但轻松自由，最重要的，能和人一起分享快乐。

回家之后最大的焦虑就是没有工作。我本想说下周一再去考虑找工作的事情，但还是忍不住焦虑，立刻就打开了。结果这一看差点没把我送走。理论上说，我现在还算是应届生，但看到每一个校招岗位都要求2023年毕业甚至是2024年毕业，看得我想死，幸好我及时关闭了App。

至于生活上的不便，可能是未来的一根稻草。家里设施老化，自来水水压不足，水质不行，屋子四面漏风，到现在我的床都没有床垫子。不过这些都不是什么大事，通常来说，我还可以忍。

只是工作。我想要工作，但我又不想跪着要饭。我渴望尽快挣钱，哪怕一个月的房租要占我工资的80％，我也想搬出去。看起来一份工作可能是为数不多的能够解救我生活的东西了。可是翻遍了招聘软件，我不知道到底是经济不行还是我不行。难道说，我们两个都不行？

回想这50天的生活，我的眼中饱含泪水。可我要怎样才能拥有那样的生活呢？一份工作？还是一个崭新的人生？

「要是昨天的飞机掉下来就好了。我的家人可以拿到几百万的赔偿，欠我钱的人也不用还债了」这样的话在编辑框中停留了许久，最终还是没能发出去。我不想把我的坏心情传染给其他人，可转念一想，朋友圈不敢发，QQ空间和微博早就被封了，不想拉朋友下水的话，就只能发在这里了。

Unemployment Rate:
2022 graduate: 18.1%
2023 graduate: 20.1%

And the government said the economy is recovering and growing.

LOL

(Well, they do stop announcing unemployment rate since 7 months ago)

Life in Yunnan seems to be the happiest one in my recent 4 or 5 years, even considering that bike crash force me to stay more than 2 weeks at home.

Sadly I have to go back to my normal life in Beijing, where I as a 2022 graduate trying to find a job where most companies only accept 2023 and 2024 graduate. Looks like there is no place for people who were left in 2022.

News said Chinese economy is recovering. I don't think so.