I'm planning on making a comeback. The summary is that my immune system is trash. I've "accepted" that my life will never be normal and pain is part of it, attempting to numb it only makes things worse. The mind pills my psychiatrist prescribed were definitely fucking me up real bad and causing super negative suicidal thoughts so I'm staying far away from any mind altering drugs.
No more LSD, amphetamines, psilocybin, DMT, Ritalin, alcohol or antidepressants. Fuck all of that. From now on, meditation and exercise only. Accept suffering. Work with what I got.
C
* writes code on cheap (<20$) MCUs
* enjoys mathematics
* Floss is love
born: 199X
pro: rationalism | progress | justice | alternative governance models | right to repair | sustainable technology | calculated collective decisions (game-theoretically optimal decentralized systems) |
against: capitalism | socialism | communism | identity-based politics | racism | nationalism | corruption | defective by design | vendor lock-in |
I believe there's a chance we might unknowingly be in an interstellar war in which the first consciousness to spread itself throughout the universe will dictate how consciousness is experienced until the heat death of the universe. Thus, it's my duty as a human-derived consciousness to ensure that whatever survives this war is a consciousness compatible with our notions of justice so that future conscious descendants of our species may enjoy the same benefits (or more) than we currently have. This belief has several practical implications day-to-day for me; my utility function is to maximize the chance that human-derived consciousness survives long enough into the future (until the universe allows so).