I'll make it clear that I decided to do this surgery now, even somewhat urgently, for two reasons.
1) Price. It has gone up 30% within the last month and I wouldn't like to pay even more if there is a way to avoid it.
2) Spare parts. I have an idea about the way these lasers work, and they don't last without new parts and maintenance. Which will be more difficult as the time goes on and logistics/sanctions make things more complicated.
So I finally obtained clarity. Made laser correction, that is.
Going from -5.25 on both eyes to 100% clear picture is great. 10/10, would recommend. The process is painless, yet unpleasant. What baffles me is that it's cheaper to buy clear vision that an iPhone. Hail capitalism.
I'll describe the process. First, diagnostics are run to determine the cornea thickness. Then, in a wekk (one shouldn't wear contact lenses over this week) the surgery begins. The nurse disinfects eyes and provides you with a nice hat, coat and a mask. You lie down on a table, a sterile cloth is put over your face.
A laser cuts cornea, surgeon puts it aside and another laser burns parts of the eye (the lens, I suppose) to change the focal strength. The cornea is then put back and the process is repeated on the other eye. Unpleasant sensations come mostly from fixators that keep eyelids in place, as well as the vacuum fixator for the eyeball. There is also an intense smell of burned fried eggs that comes from the eye when the laser is on.
If anyone has questions I'll be happy to answer to the best of my abilities, but keep in mind that I'm not a medical professional.
So trying to fight off a cold "on foot" with paracetamol while studying is not a good idea, at least my immune system can't pull that off. For the past few days I've been suffering the consequences and still feel weaker than usual. But hey, I'm alive, that's something. Everithing, actually.
At the time of writing this, my colleague is late for a zoom call she has already postponed. Rude and annoying.
Ethics require a person to be infinitely merciless to themselves and infinitely merciful to other people. The physiology requires the opposite.
Too much work wearc out mind and body, too much self control causes psychological damage. And weak self-control causes harm to others, while lack of work causes material and reputational losses.
The only thing that's left is to balance the damage dealt to you and the people around you to the best of your abilities and pray you have enough resilience to go through this.
I'll elaborate: it is not blocked from the outside. It is blocked by the government from the inside.
Well, people went on the streets in Moscow. 2000 now arrested across country, and on the second day the subway station where people started gathering was blocked immideately. No one wants this war, except for the government.
Some say all germans were nazis in the 1940s. Well, I think I realize how did that feel. Trying to live your life, as best as you can, to find out one day that somebody decided to commit a slaughter using your name.