天空вℓσи∂ @skyblond@qoto.org

Did I mention Chinese politics?

QT: https://alive.bar/@staysleepy/112338322606295467

it's 3AM. I can't sleep, and I'm thinking why. I don't know which is the root cause. I'm thinking because I can't sleep? Or I can't sleep because I'm thinking? Or maybe both?

Anyway, I think my current job offers a perfect opportunity to let me escape reality. Remote work, meet with different people from different place and they are so nice. I mean, the job opportunity itself is very, emm, I don't know how say, but it's a rare opportunity to me.

After getting a job, I can feel both my mental health and my life getting better. Although I spent a little bit too much in the first month, I got a decent monocular and dip my toe into digiscoping and bird watching, I got a Intel nuc as my first linux not running as a vm, today I figured out how to watch anime on it, a decent progress towards daily drive machine. Feels like I'm packing myself up and I'm about to start a new life, a life after almost two years of self doubting and frustration without getting any mental issues (at least not diagnosed). But this is the typical timing when you're too happy that you didn't mentally prepare for a bad thing.

although I try my best to escape from any family arguments, but I still need to live in a house, and I don't have one. So as you guessed, my parents again become the most contributions to my mental issues. I'm trying to make myself not care about them, so my mental health can be better, but it's petty hard to do. I mean, you live with someone every day and try not to care? I definitely can't.

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Writing at here, I actually don't what to say. Based on what I'm writing, the rational part of me has already run out of battery and died peacefully. I bet myself will be super embarrassing after wake up and find this piece of text. But f*ck it, it's for tomorrow me to worry.

Sometimes (especially now) I wonder, am I really don't have any issue with my mental health? Or is it just not get diagnosed? I don't know. I haven't figured out my medical insurance yet, so probably I won't worry about it in the next 6 months. Time will tell.

And... For now, I really need some sleep.

@henghenghengAAAAA 我觉得也是，我凭本事挣来的钱，凭什么要全都上交给别人，这听起来像是抖M才会做的事（

Great

That must be Not Enough RAM

The most frightening thing about a frozen Linux is the filesystem. I'll literally go crazy f after a reboot the grub said no boot partition available. And by default openSUSE doesn't have sysrq enabled for sync...

Now I set up the sysrq for REISUB, so I should be safe? I did a btrfs scrub on the root partition and it said everything is ok. I guess I'm fine now? Seems like LVM and LUKS don't need sync.

For some reason, the IDEA frozen my NUC.

I guess the memory is the main issue. With only 2GB of swap and 16GB of RAM, I opened 42 chrome tabs and 2 IDEA, and one is trying to load a spring boot project.

I was planning to upgrade to 2x32. But this month I have already spent too much. For now I'll just order one and stay with 32+8.

First time buying portable Bluetooth speaker.

So... This one is only support mono channel and you have to buy another one for stereo?

Well the quality itself is not bad. But it's quite expensive. Almost 60 usd.

The problem is, in the table there is no mentioning about the special type of label. It just said the label can be "any string".

But then you will know that the compiler will automatically infer the type based on label. So when you write something like "<f0> |<f1> G|<f2> ", it's not a regular shape, but a record.

So I have to read every page of the document to see what it does. I'm expecting some kind of briefing to let me know the features and then I can dive into it if I need it.

P1: Now you know the basics.
P2: Let's try something real.

The most understandable explanation to me.
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Antenna Theory Directivity
By Doug LeBlanc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysNkjEnoRsU

Maybe Hetzner's storage box is not the cheapest way to store things. But it does offer multiple ways to access it. And huge thanks to past me enabled the ssh access, so today I can ssh in and cat my files.

Great. UTF-16 LE BOM. Good job, Microsoft.

Glad I have my NUC available. I can SSH into my storage box and cat the key.

But why does it look not great?