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I find ones mental health is directly proportional to ones comfort with silence.
When I am not in as healthy a mental state, just some stress or whatever, nothing too significant, I find silence, particularly at the end of the day, as very uncomfortable, almost has a depressing feel to it. But if i keep music or the TV on, even in the distance without watching it that goes away.
But when i am in a healthier place I rarely even notice the silence and when I do it can be relaxing and soothing.
Is this just me?
@Demosthenes Ive been on adderall a few months now, usually i dont need it as my ADHD tends to be more of a strength than a weakness. However I went on it in part to help with weight loss and a few other things. It helps me with things that arent really typical ADHD problems or what you would expect (for example I have a sleep problem and it helps a lot with that).
With that said while most of the effects of the medication are good it does have some negative side effects too. One of which is that its hard to turn my mind off, and be at ease with the silence. Without medication I probably go too far the other direction, I'll take a little extra time sitting around doing nothing just enjoying the silence than I should, but now I dont feel I can do that very easily.
@freemo @Demosthenes
Was on something similar for a while and while I love what I learned about android and engines, I've put it behind me. I miss that concentration, though. Still have trouble getting up and getting to sleep. Good sleep only seems to come after a hard day of work.
@freemo not me.
@freemo weird. I mostly felt comfortable with silence during my "episodes".
Human brain is a very complex thing afterall.
Imagine a blob of meat just invent calculus out of nowhere.
@ravenclaw Not everyone is the same, or even similar of course. Nor is the nature of ones "episode".. I suppose there is a different sort of unhealthy that i could potentially get into from time to time, where I enjoy silence just a bit too much. This would be the sort of mentality where my productivity is very low... it is rare for me though.
@freemo
> not everyone is the same
Agreed Mr. Freemo i just saying that it felt weird from my perpective since i'm a that kind person which enjoy his personal space so much so that i generally avoids people. 
@ravenclaw Absolutely understandable.. sometimes another persons perspective, particularly when describing their internal mental state, can seem quite alien.
@freemo
> alien
Ikr! That's what's happen when nature gives us a blob of meat that's capable of doing computation 
@freemo similar. have noticed it more lately since, for me, it's related to social isolation.
also, it's like the background sounds give my mind some place to go and return when I get distracted (subjective. not sure that's how my brain works)
@2ck To me the isolation isnt a bad thing, I condense all my people time into a few days here and there and teh rest I am more than happy to be alone. Aside from a small number of people I generally dont find being around people as enjoyable as the activities I can do alone.
Then again that me be in part because of the somewhat obscure interests I have. It would be hard to find someone who shares my interests and as such it is rare I can do anything with a group I find as exciting as the things I would do alone.
@freemo same here. I feel most serene when I withdraw from caffeine and other stimulants and spend my time reading instead of scrolling. If I were more disciplined, I'd stick with it all the time.