eqyo @eqyo@qoto.org

New on mastodon, time for an #introduction!
I'm eqyo from the Netherlands 🇳🇱, I'm in my twenties and studying #mathematics & #computerscience. I am also: a semi-agnostic churchgoer ⛪, not exactly straight but still figuring things out 🏳️‍🌈, and very much into #classicalmusic 🎻.
(Expect the frequency of emojis and hashtags to drop drastically after this post)
I see myself posting about my life, about #philosophy & #politics, maybe about some #foss-related stuff...

Well this is a bit frustrating...

Maybe I should make an alternate account on another server? I'm fairly confident that most instances that object to qoto would not object to me.

A pattern I hope to avoid in the future is getting myself into a jetlag-ish loop, where I stay up very late one time and then return to going to bed on time every night but consistently don't fall asleep until 3 or 5 AM, then wake up in the morning but feel very tired and stay in bed for many hours.

If I notice this happening, I've found it helps me to stare at a bright light in the morning.
As I understand it the biological clock adjusts itself when it's light, which signals that it's day, but it does not take the absence of light as a signal that it's night.
So if I understand that correctly then it's logical that going to bed on time does not by itself shift the hours in which my body will sleep.

Completely unrelated except not: I saw the movie "C'mon c'mon" and really fucking liked it

It's not a logical necessity that parents scar their kids.

The way I saw this argued somewhere is that parents are either capable of 'saying no' to their children or they are not, hence either your parents hurt you or you never grow up leading to you hurting lots of people including yourself.

The problem here is that this 'saying no' mixes in both harmful parenting techniques and good ones.

Good parenting involves saying no to your child in a way that does not scar them.

One very important thing here, in my view, is parents having real conversations with their children in which the parent allows themself to be vulnerable.

One of the main reasons I made this account was to be able to rant anonymously about my difficulties with christianity (the "semi-agnostic churchgoer" bit in my pinned intro is very much real I'm afraid)
... which I haven't really done yet at all. I hope to write a bit about this soon-ish but it's kind of difficult and confrontational to put into words. This 'faith crisis' of mine is something I don't really talk about irl

Had a very stressful end of semester, then a holiday deliciously empty of stuff to do. Went a bit overboard on my media consumption though, so my sleep is kind of screwed up again. Anyhow, I feel pretty okay going into the new year.

I've got two new year's resolutions: be gay and do crime (translated: pursue romance and maybe try weed)

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tue-wed:
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wed-thu:
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thu-fri:
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fri-sat:
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sat-sun:
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sun-mon:
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and last night:
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Bit of a setback yesterday... *looks at clock* Oh I had better stop right after pressing the toot button huh

last night:
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1 october, whoops...

My sleep schedule has been absolute crap as of late, and my not updating this bedtime log is related to that. Kind of defeats the point of course

(The silly maths jokes will continue until I stop coming up with them)

This statistics course is weird. So many odd moments...

One occurred just today, while the teacher was explaining that a centered normal variable is uncorrelated with its own square.

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Hadn't heard about the "software reporter tool" thing before - I don't know what data exactly it's sending to Google, but it sounds concerning.

The broader point is that if you use a piece of software made by an advertising company to access the web, that company will eventually abuse its power - if making Chrome is attractive to Google, then using Chrome cannot be good for you in the long term.

If you're looking for an alternative that is just a carbon copy of Chrome but without surveillance, use Ungoogled Chromium. Otherwise, you might give Firefox a try.

For Ungoogled Chromium, you need to do some maneuvering before you can install extensions.

For Firefox, there are some concerns about the priorities of Mozilla leadership.

There are other options, but the ones I've tried don't work for certain things, or only after messing with the settings a bunch.

wed-thu:
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last night:
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I just discovered yet another reason why it is a trick question... must have been my subconscious at work

Alternatively, I could have asked "Why is the following a trick question?"

E[ X | X ≥ 1 ], where X is a random variable of unknown distribution

Homework: assume that of all mathematicians with an English-language social media account, 1 in 16 is working with expectations on any given day, of which 1 in 1024 comes up with the above joke, of which 1 in 8 decides to post it on their social media, of which 1 in 2 actually do so. Assume the decision whether to post is a Bernoulli trial.

Write down the expectation of the number of times the joke has been or will be made this calendar week (as of this post) given your current information.