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@_lunawinters
Oh no I love talking about it. Facing my struggle head on is one of the ways I deal with it. Don't be sorry.

@design_RG @freemo pure art from science

@_lunawinters Not a straight forward question for me personally.

On the outside I am living the dream, or at least in the eyes of others who hear from me now. Scotland is beautiful, I am not in financial crisis yet (and recently got a temp job to buy me some time), the pace I'm living now is nice and gentle.

On the inside I'm fighting my inner demons, traumas of my past, self doubt, depression, anxiety and all that good shit.

I got a lot to sort out internally than externally. On the external side I'm definitely loving it tho.

@design_RG @freemo Mate I would love having whiteboard walls for my room. My uni's software development lab is not filled with computers, but cubicle dividers made out of whiteboards.

But I'm on a working holiday and not staying at any one place for long, so my A4 pad will have to do.

@_lunawinters I'm living that life now, except the "no one knows you" part. I came here already knowing some internet friends. It's great.

@Shufei Yep!

@design_RG @Sphinx
For a long time I've wanted to nick an old machine just to play with various linux distros and brag about using a revived old pc.

But alas this gaming laptop has been serving me really well for pretty much everything important in my life. Except cooking I guess. (unless I run around in guild wars 2 busy world events with max graphics on 24/7)

I don't know what holds me back from doing it most of the time, maybe physical laziness, but I tend to solve most of my programming problems by putting the damn problem on paper first.

The FSM attempt in my assignment was a real confusing mess that froze my mind, until I turned to pen and paper to sort it out.

Taking a break now from my assignment game dev.

Implemented simple finite state machine to switch between player turns.

Next up is to actually play the damn board game itself.

@Sphinx I have so much anxiety with driving. Still haven't signed up for a driving test yet despite having been to many lessons. Good on you for braving the test.

@mngrif oi why are you awake, only 5 hours sleep?

@design_RG Honestly I forget to treat software tools like hardware tools - if it's more satisfying to get a job done, paying a bit more is worth it.

@Sphinx Yeah I've enjoyed using JetBrains ever since I used it for a small Python script two years ago. Still leeching them with my educational license lol.

I have a gaming laptop so loading time for JB isn't a problem for me. I have more problem with Unity editor instead.

I was using VS Code as my code editor for Unity scripts. Switched over to JetBrains Rider - proprietary but I got free educational license with my uni alumni email.

Now I feel like I'm being spoiled so hard by a proprietary IDE: full Unity API integration, auto recognition of Unity project folders and related scripts in the same game, separate IDE windows for different game projects.

I suppose some things in life are worth paying for.

@freemo It's precisely why I'm not having kids. I know I'm not ready. Doesn't stop mum wanting grandchildren though 😑

I'm remaking this ancient board game Royal Game of Ur as part of my game dev assignment, wish me luck.

My intro to Royal Game of Ur: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZskjLq040I

@freemo A lot of times parents themselves aren't ready to have kids. Or at least, not ready for or never understood the fact that when you raise a kid, life isn't about you anymore.

But alas most parents handle things with the intent of feeling good about themselves rather than actually growing their kids.